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so today is christmas bla bla, merry christmas and all
but this post is not for those who have someone to celebrate with

u see, ive been living alone for like i dunno, a week? maybe its cuz i had this lil party thing at my place yesterday, today i feel extra crap

waking up with a headache, from drinking alcohol alone
had a depressing shower, looked around, and of cuz im still alone in this house

looked in the fridge, nothing to eat, so i go out to grab something to eat, hoping that id feel less lonely from seeing ppl and shops and stuff
but thats not how it turned out

i drove around, cars r rare, busy roads became deserted, shops r all closed.
luckily, the place that i often go to eat is still open.

i walk in, the waiter asked, "how many people?" ... one
as i ate alone in the table, i see ppl walk by in crowds smiling and talking and all
then i look at my table, 3 upside down cups, and one for myself

as i finished my meal, i went to pay to the lady that is a frnd of my mums.
she knows im living alone these days, so shes like "come here whenever if u want :)"
i just sighed, saying "im feeling so grey" and walked to the empty car park, went in the only car in sight, mine.

drove home feeling like the dude from 'i am legend'

now im here at home, empty cans and bottles in front of my comp
forever alone