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so today is christmas bla bla, merry christmas and all
but this post is not for those who have someone to celebrate with

u see, ive been living alone for like i dunno, a week? maybe its cuz i had this lil party thing at my place yesterday, today i feel extra crap

waking up with a headache, from drinking alcohol alone
had a depressing shower, looked around, and of cuz im still alone in this house

looked in the fridge, nothing to eat, so i go out to grab something to eat, hoping that id feel less lonely from seeing ppl and shops and stuff
but thats not how it turned out

i drove around, cars r rare, busy roads became deserted, shops r all closed.
luckily, the place that i often go to eat is still open.

i walk in, the waiter asked, "how many people?" ... one
as i ate alone in the table, i see ppl walk by in crowds smiling and talking and all
then i look at my table, 3 upside down cups, and one for myself

as i finished my meal, i went to pay to the lady that is a frnd of my mums.
she knows im living alone these days, so shes like "come here whenever if u want :)"
i just sighed, saying "im feeling so grey" and walked to the empty car park, went in the only car in sight, mine.

drove home feeling like the dude from 'i am legend'

now im here at home, empty cans and bottles in front of my comp
forever alone

its over

as the title says, nothing much to it

christmas party?

okies~ so firstly we all know its christmas right?
mmm so firstly i wanna say that christmas is not a day of santa claus or like, w/e
its a birthday that we all celebrate, whos? well jesus :P
thats y its called christ-mas
its not actually his bday on christmas eve, but if u rly wanna know u can look it up :P
so happy birthday soon to a cool dude who did so much to us :)

then other than that, i went to some christmas party today
too much girls tbh rofl so much chick flicks hahaha
the traffic was rly bad as well, i was late by like ... iono 5 hours? HAHAHA
played heaps of mah-jong, long time no play la :P (so like im apparently suppose to be pro cuz im from hongkong hahaha)

but wat ive got out of it, is mostly a tonne of food HAHAHA
cuz im literally living alone now, and cooking is just not my thing :P (even though my gf called me lazy for that kekeke)

ah but the sad part is, my gf is rly busy with decorating and helping her mum wrapping stuff and all :/
so basically that means we wont be doing anything until after christmas :(
aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :(

o wells i guess ill just live by this song

:D

well i guess im done and over with the EAS thing

but all these doesnt matter now, ive been waiting for this day for a long time :P
cuz LUEYS BACK! from jap

wat more can i say?

just hope we can go do something together :)

>( not happy

ok so i just had a hectic sleep over night thingy from youth, it was cool and all, i got home pretty happy, checked my email, then it says i got a notification from UAC

so fine, i checked it,
turns out the EAS (special consideration thingy) FRKIN REJECTED MY ELIGIBILITY

man, srsly im pretty annoyed, as rare as it is, im actually not very happy at all >(

sigh i guess i shud be happy that my gf is coming back to aus in like wat? 2~3 days? and i rly need a happy mood since im gonna mc for tmr for these elderly ppl for Christmas and all
God help me :(

all in all, this UAC system is totally flawed, i dont think they have any idea wat its like to feel some tubes inserted into ur body, feel it curl around within ur chest, and withstand such extreme pain to a stage where ur body attempts to help itself by going into a black out stage

UAC, srsly? me no eligible? get real

guess wat i thought of when i heard this song?

be aware, cheesy post ahead

sigh so my gf flew overseas 2 days ago...

i miss her so much :(

so wat im doing now is pretty much looking at pictures of her, so pretty x)

and im quite bored now tbh
i got battlefield3, dark souls, skyrim, LoL
allllllllllll these games cant replace someone important to u sigh :/

cant wait til she comes back x)

plan,
spend christmas together? :D