be still

ok so basically i just got home from a 4 day youth camp last night, and this time the title of the camp is "be still"

well i think this is more than appropriate for me atm, to be still

there had been many times where God and Jesus had told people to be still, like the time where jesus calls out to the raging storm and wind saying "quiet! be still!", is he not also saying that to his disciples to not to worry but to have faith in him?

tbh i rly wanted to share my testimony during the camp of wat i have experienced, but since i missed the opportunity at that time, i figure that isnt it even better to potentially share this to the world through the net?

so last year was my final year in high school (as u all probs alrdy know alrdy from reading the rest of my blog), and of cuz, like every other azn, its the year where pressure had rly struck me. the fact that my lung had collapsed a few weeks before my final exams had inevitably increased my mental strains. furthermore, the medical condition also eliminated the chance of going overseas to attend my sister's wedding banquet and to meet my extended siblings whom ive not seen in years. then comes the breaking up with my gf added on by the disappointment of my atar (Australian Tertiary Admission Rank) being a few marks below my estimation mark and the fact that all my bonus mark schemes of my medical condition and my volleyball commitments being rejected, tbh i hit quite a new low at that point of my life.

but then again, God works in mysterious ways. i believed that it was a challenge, a test of faith perhaps, that such and such had happened. thankfully, even after all that, i had still managed to get into my first preference into my desired university. i think this is the point where i say, "THANK GOD!" lol and in fact, i thanked god during the time every single time i prayed, becuz i know that after each period of suffering, one would grow stronger, spiritually and emotionally. + if my lung didnt collapse, i wouldnt be at this awesome youth camp eh? :D so i rly felt that the way my lung collapsed and all, mustve been God's doing, to test me and to bring me to youth camp, maybe thats y pneumothorax had doesnt rly have a medical explanation as to y it happens? LOLOLOL

within each session and devotion time, i find that everything that ive learnt had been so applicable to my current life that i felt as if the camp was made for me lol, so i rly ought to thank God for this awesome opportunity :)

first off, mathew 6:25-34
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

its not the first time ive read that, but SHHH BAAAM, smacked me in the face like no other, y worry in times of need, when u know that God wud truly provide?
and so u might as well remind urself this, psalm 46:10
“Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

there r much more than just that as to wat ive learnt, but then i think ill give it a lil pause there, becuz that is my testimony, as to how i found refuge in God, and how we shud all remain strong in faith no matter what happens (Y)

dream

i had a dream last night, its a happy yet sad dream

i was still at school, playing volleyball against some other school, o those good times :')

i think sometimes we have to cherish wat we r having, even though it may be tough or perhaps painful, in a few years times u could look back and smile :)

nice poem?

i found this rly rly nice vid abt the difference between jesus and religion

isnt he part of a religion u say? watch :)



heres the poem


What if I told you, Jesus came to abolish religion?
What if I told you getting you to vote republican, really wasn’t his mission?
Because republican doesn’t automatically mean Christian,
And just because you call some people blind, doesn’t automatically give you vision.
If religion is so great, why has it started so many wars?
Why does it build huge churches, but fails to feed the poor?
Tells single moms God doesn’t love them if they’ve ever been divorced
Yet God in the Old Testament actually calls the religious people whores
Religion preaches grace, but another thing they practice,
Tend to ridicule Gods people, they did it to John the Baptist,
Cant fix their problems, so they try to mask it,
Not realizing that’s just like sprayin perfume on a casket
Because the problem with religion is that it never gets to the core,
It’s just behavior modification, like a long list of chores.
Let’s dress up the outside, make things look nice and neat,
Its funny that’s what they do to mummies, while the corpse rots underneath,
Now I ain’t judging I’m just saying be careful of putting on a fake look,
Because there’s a problem if people only know that you’re a Christian by that little section on your facebook
In every other aspect of life you know that logics unworthy
Its like saying you play for the lakers just because you bought a jersey
But see I played this game too; no one seemed to be on to me,
I was acting like church kid, while addicted to pornography.
I’d go to church on Sunday, but on saturday getting faded,
Acting as if I was simply created to have sex and get wasted.
Spend my whole life putting on this façade of neatness,
But now that I know Jesus, I boast in my weakness.
If grace is water, then the church should be an ocean,
Cuz its not a museum for good people, it’s a hospital for the broken
I no longer have to hide my failures I don’t have to hide my sin,
Because my salvation doesn’t depend on me, it depends on him.
because when I was Gods enemy and certainly not a fan,
God looked down on me and said, “I want that man!”
Which is so different from religious people, and why Jesus called em fools
Don’t you see hes so much better than just following some rules?
Now let me clarify, I love the church, I love the bible, and I believe in sin
But my question, is if Jesus were here today, would your church let Him in?
Remember He was called a drunkard and a glutton by “religious men”
The Son of God not supported self-righteousness, not now, not then.

Now back to the topic, one thing I think is vital to mention,
How Jesus and religion are on opposite spectrums,
One is the work of God one is a man made invention,
One is the cure and one is the infection.
Because Religion says do, Jesus says done.
Religion says slave, Jesus says son,
Religion puts you in shackles but Jesus sets you free.
Religion makes you blind, but Jesus lets you see.

This is what makes religion and Jesus two different clans,
Religion is man searching for God, but Christianity is God searching for man.
Which is why salvation is freely mine, forgiveness is my own,
Not based on my efforts, but Christ’s obedience alone.
Because he took the crown of thorns, and blood that dripped down his face
He took what we all deserved, that’s why we call it grace.
While being murdered he yelled “father forgive them, they know not what they do”,
Because when he was dangling on that cross, he was thinking of you
He paid for all your sin, and then buried it in the tomb,
Which is why im kneeling at the cross now saying come on there’s room
So know I hate religion, in fact I literally resent it,
Because when Jesus cried It is finished, I believe He meant it.

lawl

so ends life living alone
its been good and bad

+ it was rly nice taking care of the 2 dogs for my in law, kinda miss having something crawl into ur blanket and lick u to ur wake rofl

eh so my dads back today, and he is like saying its dirty, but srsly, it is like 10x better than when he was here rofl he is so retarded -.-
i didnt complain when he throws newspaper everywhere and cover up the whole floor, and throw his jackets and stuff everywhere

and its like... too noisy now, i think i enjoyed the peace and quiet when he wasnt here

ah yes, and i miss the happy new year post, but w/e, if u have always been ready my posts, ud know i keep it real
celebrations r simply... unreal to me