farm

sigh life can be so unfair

there used to be a farm, where these 2 partners couple up to work together to take care of the fields.
then one day one of them suddenly wanted to go solo, simply because that person no longer feels like it
so the fields was left to the one person that remains, trying to keep the farm intact on his own, yet a farm that had been extended to be looked after by 2 can no longer be looked after by one person alone, so the farms are no longer full of abundance

though it is not hollow, it is left in pieces, incomplete. while the one that left now have a bright future ahead, can what is left behind be mended?

lies

lately, i've been fascinated by the psychology of human reaction, as certain book had invoked my interest in wisdom in the moral of how to live righteously (which interestingly enough, this book that i speak of is not the bible, which again i shall ponder upon y that is so)

so if u break down the act of lying into the reasoning behind it, it results in these few main reasons (as far as i am concerned):

1. to avoid consequences of an action, eg u broke something that belongs to someone
2. to make the current situation more positive, eg dw, everything will be fine
3. to exaggerate certain truth, eg telling others u achieved a high score when in fact it was mediocre
4. to make others feel bad, eg telling someone that no one ever appreciated his/her existence
5. out of kindness and comfort, eg telling someone they look good even though they dont

so is lying good or bad?
one could only measure this intellectually by saying it is the cause that could answer such question.
but is lying a necessity?
theoretically i am going to say no, reason being is that all acts of lying (if not, most cases) are to conform into the society as how others view u as an individual. some may argue that by nature, humans are animals that live in groups and therefore must live with social interactions, but however, i am drawn to believe that a "friend" that puts on a mask is not a true friend, but just someone that u know.

yet sadly enough, lying is almost one of the first things a child learns to protect themselves and be socially accepted (myself included), so living a life not not lying is almost impossible from what i can perceive. however, i believe just because u have fallen, doesnt mean u just dont run at all, just like how a hurdler finishes the race even if they tripped over and over again.

can we live without lying?

1 Peter 3:10 tells us, "He that loves life and desires to see good days, let him keep his tongue from evil and his lips from deceitful words."

riding life

hey guys, remember the days when u were young, and u first learnt how to ride a bicycle?

when you r falling towards one side, don't try and turn away, but turn towards it

then i realized, hey, isn't that just like life?
when we face problems, most of us would just simply try to "turn away" from them, but that would only result in a more rapid and heavy fall.
then best way to prevent ourselves from falling, is to turn towards ur fall, face the issues u have in life head on, and solve it.

of course, that doesn't mean that there would be no chance of you falling by turning towards your fall, but know this, turning away from it will most definitely result in a heavier fall

how peculiar that from such little things in life which we don't take notice of, teaches us so much about life?

past and present

hey guys been a while eh? uni keeps me a lil busy, or maybe im just too busy doing my own things heh heres a song from an artist called bizzle, who is a christian rapper i personally love the tune, the beat, and most importantly the msg :') and it saddens me cuz i can sorta relate to the lyrics too its like.. i remember the first online game i played as a child, but even though years after i moved on, i still miss that first experience, not a single other could bring me the joy i had when i was with that first online game, even though it is rated 10/10 and most popular game in the world. y not go back and play it u ask? ... well... its long gone, and i guess i have to appreciate it as a part of the history of my life that made me who i am today.

happy birthday to myself :l

hey guys (and girls), long time no blog eh? soz (but not much ppl read this anyways)

yea so, uni life, thats some rly busy stuff, esp if u r 1st year engineering, 25 hours a week! thats more than a full timetable in high school sigh

but meh, week 6 alrdy, almost a break now so yea, here i am
so for today, ie my bday, nothing much happened, just the way i like it, + im discovering the joy of bball since i havent gone around to vball oto much due to how rare the occasions r n it clashes with my uni time
but wow, bball, not bad
however my aim is horrible, so i can only put my hop from vball to use and jump a lil :L better work on that

yesterday was an awesome lil outing thingy with 2 of my best mates and it was pretty hectic, havent had such a laugh for so long :')

ah yes, and next week, ill be going to my in laws place for a lil road trip, ill keep u guys updated on that :D

on a srs, rather dnm note
this year i hope that ppl that i know, will not include those that we just walk by each other pretending not having seen each other
i hope that certain lost relationships cud be recovered
"Bless me to be humble/Bless me to be meek
I want to be a joy/When people come around me"

uni life?

hey guys (and girls)

its been a while eh? soz :/

sigh usually when i dont blog, its cuz im either busy or i have no internet, in this case both happened simultaneously so... yea

so some time ago, some thunderstorm came and probs poped my lines, so i had no home phone or internet for like... heaps long maybe like half a month to a month sigh, then when it came back on im starting uni alrdy, so its rly been quite busy for me, but then again here i am :)

so... i guess so far the most interesting thing for me since uni is that i started learning computing, so like programing stuff, a lot of my friends who have no past experience r having a hard time understanding, but o wells, im sure they will prevail

for those of u who may or may not be interested (tough if not :P)
heres an example of some of the script ive learnt (ill just type the easy one cuz im lazy)

#include

int main(int argc, char * argv []) {
printf("tony is awesome!\n");

return 0;
}

so this is just a lil ... useless program that says im awesome whenever i activate it so to speak :P

erm so yea uni is great fun tbh, but im sick as well atm so bleh

ah and to those of u who know gun stuff, im actually building sv98 out of hobby atm
heres a pic


anyways thats all for now :P

LOOOOOOOOOL

yea so last night i went to my friend's bday party, its was cool and all, but the climax for me for that day.... must be singing k with her mum

yes, yes u heard it right, she is pretty cool :O and i rkn she sings rly well, i think sam asked and apparently she sings everyday

wish my mum knows any songs thats... well cool :L so jelly man sigh

well eitherway, i gotta G up my chink singing skills, to match her mums high standards LOL


ok so aside from that lol factor

today, i went in trails for the state U23 vball team, and damn i got cut :/

aside from some funny situation where i pretty much had to do 20~ push ups for no reason becuz of this drill it was all pretty fun... just kinda hot today eh :L

o wells... this is like the first time i experience wat it is like to be cut becuz of height :L i mean, im 6ft, but yea

i guess im quite happy that i didnt get cut cuz of skill lvl lol
guess i better work on my jump
SQUAT EVERY DAY NOW

... so in conclusion, i will be doing squats while singing in chinese these days :L

long time?

hey guys, guess i didnt put on a post for a lil short while lol

well so pretty much (unexpectedly) after the last post theres been a lotta... lil events on day after day, like someone asked me to rap it in youth then testimony bla bla rofl

well tbh im not very gifted of my tongue anyways lol probs the reason y i have a wack accent hahaha
o wells i hope it did some wat encourage ppl either way in christ :)

ah btw, lately, probs everyone alrdy know who jeremy lin is, if not, well he is just an underdog that rly came to shine, by now winning i think... 6 games in a row, just youtube him and ull find some pretty amazing stuff in bball

BUT im not a person that rly watches nba at all, so y am i so inspired by this player? well watch this:



srsly, this is wat we shud all do, in all things, humble ourselves before the lord. wisdom, talents, knowledge or even looks, will all just be a catalyst for pride, but with love, it will bring forth selflessness, humbleness, for :
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
(1 corinthians 13:4-7)

i believe god had made everyone in a specific way to shine the glory of the lord :)

be still

ok so basically i just got home from a 4 day youth camp last night, and this time the title of the camp is "be still"

well i think this is more than appropriate for me atm, to be still

there had been many times where God and Jesus had told people to be still, like the time where jesus calls out to the raging storm and wind saying "quiet! be still!", is he not also saying that to his disciples to not to worry but to have faith in him?

tbh i rly wanted to share my testimony during the camp of wat i have experienced, but since i missed the opportunity at that time, i figure that isnt it even better to potentially share this to the world through the net?

so last year was my final year in high school (as u all probs alrdy know alrdy from reading the rest of my blog), and of cuz, like every other azn, its the year where pressure had rly struck me. the fact that my lung had collapsed a few weeks before my final exams had inevitably increased my mental strains. furthermore, the medical condition also eliminated the chance of going overseas to attend my sister's wedding banquet and to meet my extended siblings whom ive not seen in years. then comes the breaking up with my gf added on by the disappointment of my atar (Australian Tertiary Admission Rank) being a few marks below my estimation mark and the fact that all my bonus mark schemes of my medical condition and my volleyball commitments being rejected, tbh i hit quite a new low at that point of my life.

but then again, God works in mysterious ways. i believed that it was a challenge, a test of faith perhaps, that such and such had happened. thankfully, even after all that, i had still managed to get into my first preference into my desired university. i think this is the point where i say, "THANK GOD!" lol and in fact, i thanked god during the time every single time i prayed, becuz i know that after each period of suffering, one would grow stronger, spiritually and emotionally. + if my lung didnt collapse, i wouldnt be at this awesome youth camp eh? :D so i rly felt that the way my lung collapsed and all, mustve been God's doing, to test me and to bring me to youth camp, maybe thats y pneumothorax had doesnt rly have a medical explanation as to y it happens? LOLOLOL

within each session and devotion time, i find that everything that ive learnt had been so applicable to my current life that i felt as if the camp was made for me lol, so i rly ought to thank God for this awesome opportunity :)

first off, mathew 6:25-34
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

its not the first time ive read that, but SHHH BAAAM, smacked me in the face like no other, y worry in times of need, when u know that God wud truly provide?
and so u might as well remind urself this, psalm 46:10
“Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

there r much more than just that as to wat ive learnt, but then i think ill give it a lil pause there, becuz that is my testimony, as to how i found refuge in God, and how we shud all remain strong in faith no matter what happens (Y)

dream

i had a dream last night, its a happy yet sad dream

i was still at school, playing volleyball against some other school, o those good times :')

i think sometimes we have to cherish wat we r having, even though it may be tough or perhaps painful, in a few years times u could look back and smile :)

nice poem?

i found this rly rly nice vid abt the difference between jesus and religion

isnt he part of a religion u say? watch :)



heres the poem


What if I told you, Jesus came to abolish religion?
What if I told you getting you to vote republican, really wasn’t his mission?
Because republican doesn’t automatically mean Christian,
And just because you call some people blind, doesn’t automatically give you vision.
If religion is so great, why has it started so many wars?
Why does it build huge churches, but fails to feed the poor?
Tells single moms God doesn’t love them if they’ve ever been divorced
Yet God in the Old Testament actually calls the religious people whores
Religion preaches grace, but another thing they practice,
Tend to ridicule Gods people, they did it to John the Baptist,
Cant fix their problems, so they try to mask it,
Not realizing that’s just like sprayin perfume on a casket
Because the problem with religion is that it never gets to the core,
It’s just behavior modification, like a long list of chores.
Let’s dress up the outside, make things look nice and neat,
Its funny that’s what they do to mummies, while the corpse rots underneath,
Now I ain’t judging I’m just saying be careful of putting on a fake look,
Because there’s a problem if people only know that you’re a Christian by that little section on your facebook
In every other aspect of life you know that logics unworthy
Its like saying you play for the lakers just because you bought a jersey
But see I played this game too; no one seemed to be on to me,
I was acting like church kid, while addicted to pornography.
I’d go to church on Sunday, but on saturday getting faded,
Acting as if I was simply created to have sex and get wasted.
Spend my whole life putting on this façade of neatness,
But now that I know Jesus, I boast in my weakness.
If grace is water, then the church should be an ocean,
Cuz its not a museum for good people, it’s a hospital for the broken
I no longer have to hide my failures I don’t have to hide my sin,
Because my salvation doesn’t depend on me, it depends on him.
because when I was Gods enemy and certainly not a fan,
God looked down on me and said, “I want that man!”
Which is so different from religious people, and why Jesus called em fools
Don’t you see hes so much better than just following some rules?
Now let me clarify, I love the church, I love the bible, and I believe in sin
But my question, is if Jesus were here today, would your church let Him in?
Remember He was called a drunkard and a glutton by “religious men”
The Son of God not supported self-righteousness, not now, not then.

Now back to the topic, one thing I think is vital to mention,
How Jesus and religion are on opposite spectrums,
One is the work of God one is a man made invention,
One is the cure and one is the infection.
Because Religion says do, Jesus says done.
Religion says slave, Jesus says son,
Religion puts you in shackles but Jesus sets you free.
Religion makes you blind, but Jesus lets you see.

This is what makes religion and Jesus two different clans,
Religion is man searching for God, but Christianity is God searching for man.
Which is why salvation is freely mine, forgiveness is my own,
Not based on my efforts, but Christ’s obedience alone.
Because he took the crown of thorns, and blood that dripped down his face
He took what we all deserved, that’s why we call it grace.
While being murdered he yelled “father forgive them, they know not what they do”,
Because when he was dangling on that cross, he was thinking of you
He paid for all your sin, and then buried it in the tomb,
Which is why im kneeling at the cross now saying come on there’s room
So know I hate religion, in fact I literally resent it,
Because when Jesus cried It is finished, I believe He meant it.

lawl

so ends life living alone
its been good and bad

+ it was rly nice taking care of the 2 dogs for my in law, kinda miss having something crawl into ur blanket and lick u to ur wake rofl

eh so my dads back today, and he is like saying its dirty, but srsly, it is like 10x better than when he was here rofl he is so retarded -.-
i didnt complain when he throws newspaper everywhere and cover up the whole floor, and throw his jackets and stuff everywhere

and its like... too noisy now, i think i enjoyed the peace and quiet when he wasnt here

ah yes, and i miss the happy new year post, but w/e, if u have always been ready my posts, ud know i keep it real
celebrations r simply... unreal to me